Sugar Shape-Up Day One

So this is hard. I knew it would be.

I had to work today- I have a part-time job as a waitress at the retirement community I am interning for. While I usually am coerced into taking home some dessert each night, there was nobody pushing it harder than the devil on my left shoulder. IT was rhubarb pie staring me in the face- not to mention the ice cream on the side.


“Taaaaaaake iiiiiiit”, said the MF on my shoulder.

“No, you are on reducing your sugar sensitivity!”, said the angelic voice.

Nope. I didn’t take it. No nibble, no nothing. And I felt pretty good about it.

I still know that I won’t be able to eliminate it all at once, and according to Dr. DesMaison wisdom- thats what its all about- the slower elimination.


So what did I eat so far today?

Breakfast: Half cup old fashioned oats, cinnamon, liquid egg whites. Which I ate with chopsticks :) Call me nuts but I am loving chopsticks as my eating utensil!

Lunch: Ham sandwich with double protein bread (2 g sugar each serving- boo) made with dijionnaise, shredded colby jack cheese, and lettuce. Oikos plain yogurt with a drizzle of Barlean’s Lemon Omega Swirl- HOLY AWESOME! A few whole grain goldfish crackers. 1/4 cup blackberries (on sale! Boo- yah!)

Snack: Pirates Booty- Aged Cheddar Cheese Rice puffs.

So far so good, I think. I also bought some VIta-tops because they are yummy and pretty good considering, but they do have 9 g sugar. I will live :)

One Common Ingredient

*** I just want to quickly note that all is well on the training homefront! I am still enjoying it, despite no weight loss. I have, however, lost about 5.5 inches overall, so that’s great- and I’m feeling stronger and noticing my body changing… While the weight thing is still something that I want to happen, I am not placing as much importance on it as I once was.***


So I had a discussion the other day with a coworker and I confessed to her that I think I have a sugar addiction. We both sort of laughed but then began comparing our own signs and symptoms…sometimes achey without it, always needing something sweet after meals, etc. and then she confessed she did too. We knew it was serious. While we both know that excessive intake of anything isn’t very good- we didn’t realize that we were, in fact, ingesting much too much sugar. I should note too- I know that “everything in moderation” is key- but my sugar consumption is not moderate. Later that night I went to the ‘net to search more about sugar. I Googled “Sugar Addiction” and the most common name that appeared was Dr. Kathleen DesMaisons:


“Kathleen DesMaisons, Ph.D. has designed a program to heal your body’s sugar sensitivity and bring it into balance. She is a pioneer in the field of addictive nutrition and was the first to give sugar sensitivity a name. She understands your issues and knows the huge impact sugar has on your body and mind.
When Dr. DesMaisons first developed her revolutionary program, she was running a drug and alcohol addiction treatment center. She recognized that the alcoholics she was working with were also sugar addicts. When she addressed their sugar addiction by adding a nutritional component to the traditional treatment for alcoholism, she had an
unparalleled success rate of 92%, even among long-term, hardcore alcoholics.

Dr. DesMaisons introduced her nutritional program for healing sugar sensitivity to the world in 1998 in her first book Potatoes Not Prozac. In it she outlined seven steps to restore balance in the sugar-sensitive brain and body. These steps work by using nutrition to balance blood sugar, raise serotonin and keep beta endorphins at optimal levels. This changes the body’s sugar-sensitive biochemistry and has an enormous effect on self-esteem and well-being.” ( Source: )

I also listened to a podcast on iTunes ( Healthy You! radio) with Dr. DesMaisons as a guest.

I figure- this lady knows her shit. She is really interesting and she has an innovative approach to addictions. I started to really think about this, and I knew-

 I have a sugar addiction.

That is sort of hard to admit, and I’ll be honest a little embarrassing, but if I’m being real here then I need to either say that out loud or write it down.

So what do I do?

I went to Barnes and Noble and perused the health section for about 2 hours. I was that girl sitting in the middle of the aisle with books all around, comparing authors and credentials, and trying to find the best book for me. I ended up grabbing one ( which I am not going to reveal just yet) and it identifies moods, behaviors, diet, nutrition, and exercise which all surrounded sugar sensitivity and belly problems.

I am going to follow a reduced sugar regimen (or detox- but I hate that word) for the next 6 days, starting tomorrow April 11th, 2010.


The regimen:

Eliminate all sugar– added sugars, highly refined white flour or sugar, and sugar substitutes. No desserts, candy, juice, honey, soda, etc. unless it is sugar free!

Only eat low-glycemic fruits, if any at all- Don’t get all huffy- I know they have lots of vitamins- HOWEVER- I’ll be getting vitamins from many types of veggies and greens as well as supplementing too.

Get plenty of sleep

– Drink LOTS of water

– Eat small frequent meals- to eliminate cravings

– Exercise!

-Journal (here hopefully)

So there you have it. I am looking forward to this, but I know that it WILL BE VERY HARD. VERY HARD. One more time: VERY HARD.

I am willing to try this. I want to know if I have been suppressing my feelings and sabotaging my weight loss. I want to get to the root of things and be the happier me I know I can be!


The One Where I’m Getting It…

Since the last post, I have had a number of conversations with different people. Great friends, good family, and of course helpful mentors. I realized a lot of what I said in the last post may have come off in a certain way- but let me just say: No matter what I say, no matter what I do, you are not me, and I, well I am not you.

Since, I have been looking at myself in a new light. Am I happy with my body? Right now, I will be. Am I happy with where I live? Right now, I am. Am I happy about my future? Right now, I can be.

It’s about the here and now. I need to be aware of the privileged life I live. I am happy with the things I have. Granted, we have bad days and we have great days. From here on out, I am vowing to plan for the future, but live in the moment- be happy with what the good Lord has given me, and remind myself from time to time, that my weight does not define me…not now. Not ever.

I am one of those people who relates a song to a moment, a memory, a milestone. This song is currently defining my life. Enjoy!



You look around
It’s staring back at you
Another wave of doubt
Will it pull you under
You wonder
What if I’m overtaken
What if I never make it
What if no one’s there?
Will you hear my prayer?
When you take that first step
Into the unknown
You know that he won’t let you go
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to alter you
You know you’re made for more
So don’t be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes And you can
Walk on the water too
Verse 2:
So get out
And let
Your fear fall to the ground
No time to waste
Don’t wait
Don’t you turn around and miss out
Everything you were made for
I know you’re not sure
So you play it safe
Try to run away
If you take that first step
Into the unknown
He won’t let you go
(step out)
Even when a storm hits
(step out)
Even when you’re broken
(step out)
Even when your heart is telling you telling you to give up
(step out)
When your hope is stolen
(step out)
You can’t see where you’re going
You don’t have to be afraid
So what are you waiting,
What are you waiting for?
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to alter you
You know you’re made for more
So don’t be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water…
Walk on the water too

Crying Won’t Help…

Hello. Today is an interruption to my regular health posts. I am here to talk about a few things related to health, but not all. Bear with me. If you don’t feel like hearing a complainer…then don’t read.


Weight Loss

I am really f**king frustrated and upset getting down about this whole ordeal. And yes, it has become an ordeal for me. For someone who, and I haven’t ever really admitted this before, has been on a diet for nearly four years, it has always been the same sh*t.

1) It starts off with a new program, and a loss in weight (this time around 1.5 pounds)

2) I work really hard tracking and working out and staying happy ( Mind-Body connection folks)

3) Some event, party, fun thing, stressful thing, happens and I am derailed just a touch- though I try to stay focused.

4) I weigh in and my results are up (this time around 1.5 pounds. Yes- the exact amount I lost to begin with) but I know why. Hence derailment.

5) I get upset but keep working at it and weigh in again (only to find out I am down .5 pound- which I will take, especially considering my friend that is visiting ;))

6) I get really sad/upset/mad/frustrated/irritated/angry/bothered/annoyed/freaked out/pissed off/crazy/obsessed. Then, try to get back on track but am still really worried and annoyed and unhappy.

I am listening to my trainer who has been tracking my progress and has officially recommended I eat a bit more, or at least more calorie dense food.


Yes really. And here is why: I have been having major deficits at the end of the day which may mean my bod is holding onto weight as it believes I am in starvation mode.

I’m scared. I don’t want to eat more because I don’t want to gain more. But I want to trust her and I don’t want to be sad anymore.

I have hated my body for the last two years. Yeah, I said it. I don’t want to be heavy anymore. I am over it.

I hope this works…


Getting a Job

I have applied 20000000 times over and I have had a couple nibbles but not much. Here’s the deal: I know I need a job. I’d like to be around for my sister’s wedding in October. I need some experience.

Here’s the truth: I am not as happy as I once was. I want to travel. I’d like to work abroad or enter the Peace Corps. I would do an Au Pair job if I could.

Do you make the connections? If not, here it is: I can’t go anywhere if I don’t have a job which gives me money. I won’t be able to help plan wedding stuff if I’m not here. I don’t want to put my life on hold any longer though, and I feel as though I could do a summer job.

What the hell do I do? And don’t just say “Do it!” because I don’t like letting people who want me to succeed down (read: mom and dad) and I don’t want to be a bad MOH (read: for my Type A sister’s wedding).



Happening soon. Could have some cool news. Stay tuned.


Thanks, I needed to get that off my chest.  Any input would be greatly appreciated.

Raise Your Right POM and Repeat After Me…

….I love POM Juice!


Some great peeps over at POM sent me a wonderful box full of POM juice to try out.


It is sooooo good. I was a little shocked at first, assuming it would be very tart, but it wasn’t nearly as bad as I was expecting. It was crisp, then tart, then refreshing. My friend/boss Molly said, “I just keep drinking and drinking and drinking it!”



Overall the taste was great and I would definitely use this product in a number of recipes!



PT Session One: Chandra Killed It! (In a good way)

Hello hello!

So I had my first training sessions today and it was BOSS.

We did all kinds of lifts and I was sweaty at the end. Very sweaty. And very fatigued.

Mission Accomplished!


Now I have to track my cals using the BodyBugg system.

Here goes nothing :)


Back soon with ACTUAL pictures :)

Here we go….


Yesterday I took some giant financial steps into my future…

I spent a lot of money trying to figure out what is going to make me happier, more marketable, and more proud of myself.

First, as a Community Health Education major, I signed up for the CHES Exam slated for April 24th, 2010! I am still irritated that I have to pay $200+ for this investment, but in the end, I will be a Certified Health Education Specialist, thus increasing the likelihood of a great job! Not only that, I will have the credentials after my name ;)

Second, I have not been happy with myself- namely my weight. You all have heard me gripe, possibly caught me starting X plan, yadda yadda yadda.  Well a good friend of mine, Chandra, helped me understand that its ok to get help- even when you “know everything there is to know” about health and wellness… without further ado,

I got a Personal Trainer! And not just any PT, nope!

I got Chandra!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOO!

She will keep me accountable and help me reach my goals. I am truly looking forward to it and I can’t wait to see some results! We officially start today- my session is at 6 pm and I am stoked to lift, and lift HARD.

In the end, it was a lot of money, but I need to be happy and I want to move forward with my career. Sometimes I hate money, other times I love it, but my mom said to me, “Don’t put a price on your happiness.” SO true Mom, so true.


Take Care!


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